My last entry was about the woes of weight loss. I am now 1/3 of the way through with my weightloss journey. It's been an interesting and exciting 4 months. I have lost 25 lbs so far and about 50 more to go.
I have had moments when it is hard to control myself, but I am not as much as I used to. I think this healthy lifestyle might stick!
More to come.
Friday, April 2, 2010
Sunday, August 23, 2009
WeightLoss Woes
I have been trying to lose weight for the past 8 years. I started gaining my freshman year in college. It spiraled from there. I thought it was the freshman fifteen, but it quickly spiraled to an extra 50 lbs. Then I thought it was stress. Come to find out, it was PCOS. This meant it was easy for me to gain and extra hard to lose.
My mom helped me find WeightWatchers. It helped for awhile, I lost some of the weight, but it quickly came back. I gave up. I have been trying it off and on for years.
One year I was having trouble/stress in a few aspects in my life and all I seemed to eat was stirfry when I even ate. I lost almost 20 lbs. I think it was more from the stress than anything. I was too worked up to eat.
Now I have a full time job and am in the REAL WORLD. I joined a gym at the beginning of the year and was going religiously for all of Jan. Then that trickled to maybe once a month. Not good and a waste of money. I know I need to go, but I don't have the willpower to make me go. Just like now I don't have the willpower to resist the foods I shouldn't have.
I am ironic. I know I shouldn't eat certain things, and that makes me want them even more. Stress/Moods affect my eating. Stress can either make me eat everything or nothing. I have no self-control right now. I have people who are supportive, but I sabbatoge myself. I'll do really well for a few days and then stop. Same goes for exercise. I have a gym here at my complex and live within a mile of one of the gyms I can go to. Do I use either? NO. I don't know if it is pure laziness, or wondering what others might think?
I get so caught up in the little things that the big things are suffering AKA my health, my looks, etc. I want to get better and healthier. I can't keep doing this to myself or I'll end up even "sicker" with diabetes, or worse.
I have such good supports, but I don't know how to utilize them as well as I should. Money is another issue, but I have to rant about this one really quick. WHY IS FOOD SO DAMN EXPENSIVE??? Especially the healthy stuff... You would think that would be a deterant in itself but unfortunately it's not.
I am going on and on about nothing now so it's time to go. Bottom line is weightloss is hard for me and it makes me just want to give up. I get really down about myself sometimes and I don't like it.
My mom helped me find WeightWatchers. It helped for awhile, I lost some of the weight, but it quickly came back. I gave up. I have been trying it off and on for years.
One year I was having trouble/stress in a few aspects in my life and all I seemed to eat was stirfry when I even ate. I lost almost 20 lbs. I think it was more from the stress than anything. I was too worked up to eat.
Now I have a full time job and am in the REAL WORLD. I joined a gym at the beginning of the year and was going religiously for all of Jan. Then that trickled to maybe once a month. Not good and a waste of money. I know I need to go, but I don't have the willpower to make me go. Just like now I don't have the willpower to resist the foods I shouldn't have.
I am ironic. I know I shouldn't eat certain things, and that makes me want them even more. Stress/Moods affect my eating. Stress can either make me eat everything or nothing. I have no self-control right now. I have people who are supportive, but I sabbatoge myself. I'll do really well for a few days and then stop. Same goes for exercise. I have a gym here at my complex and live within a mile of one of the gyms I can go to. Do I use either? NO. I don't know if it is pure laziness, or wondering what others might think?
I get so caught up in the little things that the big things are suffering AKA my health, my looks, etc. I want to get better and healthier. I can't keep doing this to myself or I'll end up even "sicker" with diabetes, or worse.
I have such good supports, but I don't know how to utilize them as well as I should. Money is another issue, but I have to rant about this one really quick. WHY IS FOOD SO DAMN EXPENSIVE??? Especially the healthy stuff... You would think that would be a deterant in itself but unfortunately it's not.
I am going on and on about nothing now so it's time to go. Bottom line is weightloss is hard for me and it makes me just want to give up. I get really down about myself sometimes and I don't like it.
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